Mazel tov on coming out! I am a firm believer in the fact that coming out of the closet is the single most powerful thing we can do to end the prejudice, violence and inequality that the LGBT community faces. And when we happen to be in the public eye, coming out, publicly, is all the more important. Congratulations, and thank you.
What a wonderful and brave decision you made to come out of the closet regarding your illness. To show it, in detail and unvarnished. You clearly thought it was important to tell this very human, very vulnerable, frightening and painful story. You allowed yourself to be seen in the grips of something eating away at your body, ravaging it. You showed us the war you waged to bring it back to health. The images [continue reading...]
Alan Turning was a British code-breaker and mathematical genius credited with cracking the German enigma code during WWII which, it can be argued, was a major turning point in the war. He was also known as the “father of modern computing.” If you use a computer, you might want to thank him. And he was gay, a crime for which he was arrested. To avoid jail, he opted for chemical castration. Two years later, he committed suicide. He has recently been pardoned for his crime and acknowledged for his contributions by the Queen.
Perhaps one of the grossest and most damaging injustices the LGBT community has faced is the exclusion of our stories from history. The exclusion of our contributions. The exclusion of our sacrifices. The exclusion of our challenges, and therefore the exclusion [continue reading...]
Yesterday the internet blew up over ignorant comments made by an ignorant man who happens to be on a tv show and is therefore deemed worthy of having his opinions amplified. Some argue that we should simply ignore his comments. I disagree. Responding to hatred with silence is not the appropriate path in a world where violence against the LGBT community, LGBT teen suicide and LGBT teen homelessness are horrifically run of the mill. I don’t believe we are yet at the place where we can relax into a position of “so and so’s an idiot so why are we paying attention.” We’re paying attention because a lot of people still believe such things, and a lot of people act on them. Every time an idiot speaks, we must speak back.
Today is National Coming Out Day and I have a message for you: I am gay, and I am boring. I have led a productive, yet unremarkable life. I share my unremarkable life with my husband, whom I had to marry in another state. We are not front page kinds of people. TMZ has never called me. Unless something truly unexpected happens between now and the end of my life, my name will not grace the pages of our history books ~ certainly not if Texas has anything to do with it.
I am a performer, writer, activist ~ someone forever “following my passion” and “searching for my place in the world.” After many successful years as a dancer, I hung up my jazz sneakers and began to search for a profession that could sustain [continue reading...]
If it has, can someone please send me a copy so I can read it, study it, highlight it, earmark it, quote its über-inspirational passages and use my status updates to proselytize on Facebook? Please?
Because I am not good at this. Recovery requires a patience that I don’t naturally possess and I need a guide ~ or shaman ~ some form of spiritual presence to lead me to a hidden trough of patience and acceptance; balance and harmony. You see, my natural tendency is to scream and rage and pout. And left to my own devices I will begin each screaming, raging, pouting sentence with “But I WAAAAAAANT…..!!!!!!”
It’s not a good look on a 41 year old.
Three weeks after my surgery [continue reading...]
I’m being tortured by a piece of blue foam. I understand that it couldn’t possibly look any more innocuous ~ a blue foam wedge with four straps attached to it that must be kept between my legs at all times, including when I’m asleep ~ and when I was told that I would have to “wear” it constantly post-surgery, I nodded a nod of sweet, blind ignorance. I thoughtlessly smiled and blank-stared my understanding and acquiescence. I heard the words, but they had yet to be tethered to actual meanings; definitions. What I acknowledged and agreed to was just sound. Since then, those sounds have morphed into experience, and that once seemingly harmless blue foam wedge has become an instrument of torture powerful enough to reach down into the deepest layer of [continue reading...]
It is a big deal.
Rick & I are going into NYC today. To get married. For the fifth time. But today will be our first “marriage.”
It didn’t start out feeling special. This time around was solely to ensure that we are protected by a “we” bubble when I go into the hospital next week. The thought that someone might bar Rick from my room, ignore him or treat him as some kind of stranger should a decision need to be made on my behalf, was beyond hideous. I needed to know that all who come in contact with us know who he is and treat him accordingly.
This time around, the fifth time around, was not for love. It was for comfort; for protection.
No big deal. We’ve done [continue reading...]
Recently I was telling an acquaintance that Rick and I had gone in to NYC to get a marriage license and that next week we would be trekking back in to seal the deal. I explained that we’re doing it now because I want to be married before my surgery. Married. Not domestically partnered. Not civilly unioned. Not any of the lesser options we’ve been forced over the course of our relationship to accept because they were what was available to us at the time. Now that DOMA is dead, and since I’m having my surgery in New York (where marriage equality has been the law of the land for over two years and where, as far as I can tell, Western civilization has yet to crumble, at least not any more than it [continue reading...]
This week I watched from afar as someone I don’t know ~ a friend of many friends ~ sounded off on FB regarding what marriage is and isn’t. This person, who spent a lifetime in the theatre, riffed on religion, God and Jesus; ranted about bloodlines and how nothing other than one man, one woman marriage would ever be “real” marriage. While infuriating, her tantrum wasn’t interesting or creative enough to have brought anything new to the table. Her posts merely exposed her ability to regurgitate the same bullshit we’ve come to expect from those who are suddenly more concerned with penises fitting into vaginas than with the fact that it will take the gays generations to destroy the institution of marriage with quite the same panache that heterosexuals have [continue reading...]
As we all know, history was made yesterday when the Supreme Court struck down section 3 of DOMA ~ the section which was specifically designed to keep the federal government from ever recognizing those yucky, immoral, dirty, non-sacred gay relationships. I laughed. I cried. I celebrated. It was a huge day ~ a huge step towards full LGBT equality. But as the sun rose this morning, the overwhelming emotion of becoming an almost full citizen of this country began to dissipate and reality set in. Yes, it was a HUGE step, but ultimately, it was just a step. There are a lot more steps that need to be taken.
As I watched DOMA become an embarrassing chapter in American history, I told Rick that before I go under the knife this summer I [continue reading...]